THE VOICE

The sound of the wave as it unfolds and dances on the soft carpet of the sea shore
The white bubbles , foaming enthusastically , and the smell of the freshness, entwined with the aroma of the seas natural essesnce
The voice that tells you , you cannot see , hear , smell, taste , touch , embrace
IS NOT YOUR VOICE ……..

Your friends soft compasionate voice , as she gently speaks
Her laughter , and gleam of friendship that radiates from her smile
The voice that tells you , she is prettier , smarter ,
IS NOT YOUR VOICE …….

As you smile in the mirror , and that besutiful face smiles back
As you moisturise your body with soft essence and love
The voice that tells you , that smile is not yours
IS NOT YOUR VOICE ……

As you sit down to nourish your body , and you smell the aroma , and the curiosity of of how beautiful and tasty , that meal that you have created , fills you with wonder …..The voice that tell you , you are not hungry or greedy…

THIS IS NOT YOUR VOICE

The voice that will gently guide , encourage you on your wonderful journey to FREEDOM.
The voice that will speak in HARMONY , with YOUR life , it will be encouraging , compassionate , understanding and forgiving .A voice that will always speak the truth , and will always be heard , when YOU CHOOSE TO LISTEN TO YOUR VOICE .

Everyone is unique , and has a beautiful voice to share .

Keep up all the wonderful work , RECOVERY IS WORTH IT

FREEDOM…..

From a soft spring , from the the golden carpet of the sea shore , the sand trickling to create the unique footprint of the precious step you have made.
The crunch and crispness of the autumn leaves , a collage of warm and earthy colours , from choclate brown , to caramel beige , create a quilt of warmth , to guide you on your way …..

The heavinly sound of a wide open sea , as the waves dance and harmonise with each unique fall.
To the howling wind , as it echoes a beautiful sound of power and strength……an orchestra of triumph

The aroma of freshness from the salty sea air,
To the crisp and Icy air , as your breath makes beautiful frosty shapes from each breath you take …….

The warmth of a gleaming yellow sun as it hugs and caresses you ,
To the warmth and cosiness , wrapped up , a scarf hugging your kneck , and your fingers embeded in the comfort of softness of cosy wool, and your ears nestled in the warmth of soft heat………

FREEDOM IS EVERYWHERE , no mater what part of this beautiful world we are , no mater what magical season greets us ………..but most of all ……

Our FREEDOM , comes from within , a beautiful message that your precious journey WILL share with you , freedom is within us all of us ….. RECOVERY IS FOR EVERYONE …..

BELIEVING

Today I would like to share you , take you back , I have to add a good few years now ! to a very special time , when I would lie in my bed , my mind so excited , that my little toes would curl ! my duvet pulled up so high , with my head nestled with just a little peeping hole , to see if I could catch a glimpse of that magical red coat ! my ears standing upright like a litle elf ! , to hear the sound of the magic bell , and my face lying sideways , waiting to feel the tickle of that magical white beard
A time when I BELIEVED in father Christmas ……..and you know I did hear him , and he did give me that cuddle and I did catch a glimpse of his red coat as he gently tip toed from my room ! was many an exciting story that I shared around the festive Christmas dinner , WHY .. because I BELIEVED in father christmas ……

Its amazing and so powerful to see this belief shared down through so many generations , one that still makes little childrens minds dance with delight , and hearts fill with joy .

BELIEVING , BELIEF , is a very powerful tool , through the wonderful journey of recovery
There is only one thing that can stand in the way of believing , and thats choosing not to believe.
BELIEVING in your freedom , and the beautiful journey that will take you there , will share with you a BELIEF , more exciting and powerful than that of father Christmas ! , as it is a gift , that no one else can give you , or no one can take from you …. it is your SELF BELIEF .

keep believing in YOUR FREEDOM , and embrace the gift your journey will share ….

Oh and being blessed as a mother today , i still enjoy the believing of father christmas , through my childs

smile of excitment , and as I watch her little toes curls , as I tuck her into bed each christmas eve !

and that inner child , that has never left , as I still sllep with one eye open , with the hope of once again catching a glimpse of that magical red coat !!

Keep believing in YOUR FREEDOM , BELIEVE IN THE UNIQUE PERSON THAT YOU ARE X

HOPE ….

A candle that burns , the aroma of vanilla and cinamon spice as it fills a room .The wax as it gently drips , creating a beautiful work of art in slow motion
The light that flickers , a dancing flame , a flame that creates a darkened room of magical shapes and sillouetes.
THE LIGHT OF HOPE

From a mid summers night , the reflection of the moon , a shimmering almost magical path it creates on a silent and calm sea
To an autumn eve , the trees a bare from its natural folage , but yet dressed with beautiful light from a starry night
THE LIGHT OF HOPE

From a new born babys cry , as it nestles onto its mothers love and warm embrace
To the sound of a toodlers first word , to the laughter and excitment from the school playground
To those tired eyes as they say goodnight , with a twinkle of the fun that tomorrow will bring
THE LIGHT OF HOPE

Your imagination , your thoughts , your dreams as they create a mind full of broadway lights , a firework of enthusasim and excitment , a rainbow of colour, a riverdance of strength and determination , a dance of harmony
THE LIGHT OF HOPE

The light of hope , that surrounds us from dusk till dawn , the light that will never go out , when you keep HOPE a light ……

The light that will gently guide you on your precious journey to FREEDOM .

A STEP …….

Each step we take is a precious footprint , on lifes unique journey
Each step is an EXPERIENCE, a moment of laughter , joy , happiness and somtimes tears .

Each step holds a precious MOMENT , of being alive , being present .
Even when we are standing still , we still make a unique footprint ……

And REMEMBERING all the steps , that you have taken , to get you where you are , is what will encourage you to embrace , the next beautiful stepping stone on lifes precious journey.
Each step you take no matter how big or small , will take you one step closer to your FREEDOM .

Keep with it , recovery is worth , YOU are worth it .

A ONE WAY TICKET …..

Travelling was always somthing I enjoy doing , and even if the opportunity didnt arrive , I would visit these places in my mind ! by reading books on amazing countries , their history , culture , and would get lost in their world , even if it was just for brief moments , it was always worth the visit !……

And always excited and curious , when I got the opportunity to purchase my ticket ! and visit in person , it was a return ticket that I choose because deep inside , I knew there was” no place like home” …..

Its funny though , when I embarked on my “journey to freedom” deep inside I knew it was “a one way ticket ” that I wanted , becuse there was a voice that whisperd, encouraged me ,and said it would be the best investment of my life ………

and YES !!! That one way ticket took me on the most amazing journey that became MY LIFE …, as on this journey I learned what living was about … I meet a unique character ! and culture !… I re discovered BEING MYSELF AND LIVING MY LIFE …. is precious …….

And although there was many a stop and crossroads , on my journey , they always give me the opportunity to stop and REFLECT , to stop and APPRECIATE , to stop and EMBRACE …and filled me with excitment of the adventure that lay ahead ……..

You see that ONE WAY TICKET , has no expiry , it brought me to my freedom , and I continue on my journey , LIVING MY LIFE OF FREEDOM , and yes !! that little voice taht whispered “it will be the best investment of my life………………………….

often laughs out loud !!!with joy and says I told you so !!!!………..

Embrace your journey , experience the adventure , as it is a magical one way ticket !! and WILL take YOU where you want to go !!!……

Keep with it , Recovery is worth it , YOU are worth it …….

 

SOLITUDE ….

Today I would love to share with you a precious time on my journey – a beautiful stepping stone that opened up a whole new EXPERIENCE for me …..

Loneliness , was something that for a good while I couldnt just put my finger on !, it was like I was both ends of the spectrum here , I would isolate myself , from freinds family and loved ones , or I would be the extreme opposite , I would become the party animal , the social Diva !!!, but yet even in a crowdedroom , I still got the intense feeling of lonliness , it somtimes felt I was watching a live film without sound and blurred vision …….

I remember writing in my journal one night “there is a barb- wire fence , that has entwined my thoughts and crippling my being , it was meant to protect me from getting hurt , but I am only hurting myself ”

It was on this beautiful stepping stone on my journey , that I made some powerdul realisations , I didnt enjoy being in my own company , I didnt enjoy being alone with my own thoughts , it took strength and courage to admit this to myself but when I did – it encouraged me to ask MYSELF , how I could change this ….

Today I would like to share some things that helped :

If I was sitting on my own , and my mind was one of negativity , I would put on some music , read some poetry , write in my journal , and this would help to ignite my thoughts , my thinking …….

I would do a SELF – KNOWLEDGE QUIZ! …..get to know me !
I would ask myself all the questions I could think of ! from what is my favourite colour , to when is the last time you laughed ? to how many languages can you speak , describe a funny movie , and name some actors , and other films that they were in that you enjoyed …….

You see there was a time that I wanted to escape from my own company , but the more time I spent getting to know me , spending time with me , the more comfortable and the more enjoyment I was having – and I no longer needed to escape as the socail diva ! , I took myself along to enjoy my company with my friends , I suppose what I learned was a very simple but most beautiful lesson , I became friends with myself ……

And Today recovered , I love people , chatting listening , laughing , sharing , and also the moments of silence among friends , those comfortable moments of being myself and being present in the moment ……

And I also love SOLITUDE , moments when I will take myself off for a stroll , moments when I sit and admire the night sky , moments when I love MY OWN COMPANY ……

Another beautiful and precious learning my journey shared with me ……

Keep with it , recovery is worth it , YOU are worth it , and spend time , getting to know the beautiful person YOU ARE ………